Two years and the Truth.

Monday, September 19, 2016

Two years and the Truth

It's been a while, quite a while since I last released a book. Almost two years in fact. There are reasons for that, some boring, some personal, some were just part of life, but I'm going to tell you about it.

I don't share a lot of personal stuff, other than pictures of my family, because I just adore my family. My husband and daughter are my moon and earth. So, I love to share things about them. But myself? Not so much. This time I will because it affects my books. So here goes.

Writing is... the most amazing adventure. I live in places that I imagine, experience things, and meet people I'd never have the chance to in the real world. The best part is sharing those things with other people. But like any adventure, there are snags along the road. Sometimes, the car won't start, or your luggage gets lost, maybe you trip and fall in a mud puddle and lose your binoculars. My point is that I hit a few bumps. This book wasn't the issue, it was all me.

You see, I suffer from severe anxiety and I tripped on my own feet. Suddenly Royal did so well and it was the most amazing surprise. I've never felt so grateful and in awe of a moment. But, soon all of the stars that filled my eyes and heart were quickly replaced by dark clouds. It felt as if the whole world rested on my shoulders. I spent months suffering from imposter syndrome and convinced that it all had been a fluke. I second guessed every decision I made while writing. I rewrote everything many times and basically drove myself insane. I spent so much time worrying about everything, anything, that I missed out enjoying so much of life.

And I decided that wasn't healthy. It wasn't healthy; I wasn't healthy. I needed change. So I stepped back, I scaled down everything, and focused on getting my anxiety under control, on being well. I took things slowly, I learned to be patient with myself, and that meant unhurried book releases. I worked on Bedmates until I was sure that I'd written the book that I wanted, created something in which I was proud.

I'm telling you all this because I think I owe it to the readers that have been with me from the very first book. A two year gap in the publishing world is an eternity and I know some probably wondered if I fell off the face of the earth… or if I’d given up. I didn't! I just decided to make sure I was in a place to give you the very best book possible...

And I feel like I've done that. Bedmates comes out in three weeks. TWO. WEEKS. I love this book. I love Maddie and Jake. I love their story. I love continuing the Royal world. And I really hope that you all love it too. (But good grief, somehow in the last two years, time has lessened the memory of my anxiety during book releases. HOLY COW! The fear and nerves are intense but that's okay! It's part of the whole experience. I'm genuinely excited that I FINALLY get to share this book with you.)

So, if you've been waiting for another book from me you don't have long now. October 4th is just around the corner.

I've now spilled my guts to everyone and will get back to gearing up for the release and putting the finishing touches on the next book in the series.

I’m going to leave you all with my thanks. Thanks for your patience, your understanding, and continued support. And please, if you suffer from anxiety or anything else, remember to be kind to yourself.


  1. You're always worth the wait. How long that is, irrelevant.

  2. Can't wait!!! :) :) :) I pre-ordered my copy!! WHOOP WHOOP!!!!

  3. Luvers you lots! And I, too, am in your shoes. It's a daily struggle, for sure. But try to remember how special and wonderful you are! How loved you are, too. I'm super excited for this release and know it'll be a wonderful experience! I'm so happy for you and wish you great things! ((hugs))

  4. So much sympathy for your struggle. Remind yourself how much bravery and strength it took to get to today. And I can't WAIT for Bedmates!!!!!!

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  6. In the past twenty or so years I've only attended 3 family events that I can remember. My anxiety kicks in at loud, large family gatherings. Especially weddings, Bar/Bat Mitzvas and even a Bris. I stay home and let my spouse and kids represent me.

    This now has to change as with the death of the last upper generational member, I AM NOW MY FAMILY Elder. That includes my family of 20, my younger cousins who with children and grand children we number close to sixty (just first cousins and their brooks). When I spoke to my younger cousin (a lawyer with a large national firm) he told me "Better You Then ME!" Scary huh?


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